Diah Veria!!!
Today, I have realized I'm in a "catch-22" situation (follow the link for a brief explanation of what exactly that means). The two problems at hand are first, I need to work to live, however, I am not happy working at a where I am and want to try to work in something more in my field since I enjoy what I do, the second problem in the situation is that I need to study and work on my Italian more (related to my field especially) in order to advance in the work place. The overall problem is this though, I have no time for both work and study it seems. I get up in the morning and go right to work. I get off of work around 4:30pm and usually have things to get done or I am so tired from work that I need a cat-nap. When I go back around 7:30, I work till about 10:30 and eat a quick dinner and go home (typically). I haven't been going out much lately since I haven't been feeling 100%. Thus another problem, I feel alone and sad since I don't see my friends much.
To sum up what I think I just wrote, there's not really just 2 problems but rather 3 or 4. Something's got to give somewhere but each leg of this three legged stool is dependant on the other two legs; one leg failing means the whole system collapses. I think this situation has become increasingly agrivating to me and today I actually asked myself, for the first time, do I really want to live here? It passed over once I left work but I know that I the cycle has to stop somewhere.
Where do I go from here? I did have my first trip to the hospital this week. Monday, I left work and walked the 20 minutes downhill to the hospital (outside the city walls). I waited in the waiting room for nearly an hour and spoke with the doctor (who didn't speak a word of English) for 5 minutes. Then I took the 20 minute walk back up the hill into the walls of Volterra. I like that it costed me nothing (just 3.40 for the cream he perscribed me). I guess you might be wondering what was wrong with me, and to tell you the truth, I don't really know, and the doctor didn't tell me what it was, but I had ugly red bumps on my right hand. They were there for probably 4 days before I went to the hospital and it bothered me seeing as many people see my hands handle their food at the restaurant I work at. But within a day, the bumps were hardly noticable. My hand is back to normal now, just the usual cuts from knives at work.
Anyways... I need to get some things done and take a shower before I go back to work (the catch-22 again). So I leave you all... Hope I will have better news next week sometime. Thanks again for the comments all!
Ciao tutti!
To sum up what I think I just wrote, there's not really just 2 problems but rather 3 or 4. Something's got to give somewhere but each leg of this three legged stool is dependant on the other two legs; one leg failing means the whole system collapses. I think this situation has become increasingly agrivating to me and today I actually asked myself, for the first time, do I really want to live here? It passed over once I left work but I know that I the cycle has to stop somewhere.
Where do I go from here? I did have my first trip to the hospital this week. Monday, I left work and walked the 20 minutes downhill to the hospital (outside the city walls). I waited in the waiting room for nearly an hour and spoke with the doctor (who didn't speak a word of English) for 5 minutes. Then I took the 20 minute walk back up the hill into the walls of Volterra. I like that it costed me nothing (just 3.40 for the cream he perscribed me). I guess you might be wondering what was wrong with me, and to tell you the truth, I don't really know, and the doctor didn't tell me what it was, but I had ugly red bumps on my right hand. They were there for probably 4 days before I went to the hospital and it bothered me seeing as many people see my hands handle their food at the restaurant I work at. But within a day, the bumps were hardly noticable. My hand is back to normal now, just the usual cuts from knives at work.
Anyways... I need to get some things done and take a shower before I go back to work (the catch-22 again). So I leave you all... Hope I will have better news next week sometime. Thanks again for the comments all!
Ciao tutti!
posted by V_Concessi at 16:08
2 Comments:
*hug*
You'll figure it all out, I don't have any doubt.
vince good things come to those who wait, 3 months is not a long time to think that everything should be perfect. You have some great friends and a lot of people there who have done so much for you. You are so very lucky!!! I can't wait to see you in about 3 weeks!! love you son..
love mom and dad
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