decisioni
Well... I didn't write any blogs while I was in the US as you can see. I hope that in being off for 2 months I haven't lost many readers. But here I am, back in Volterra. Arrived back on Thursday of this week. And not to bounce around the topic of this first blog of 2007, I will get right to it. For the first time, I am in a state of confusion. When I was here before, nothing seemed more certain than that I belong here, but I now question that. The future is as unpredictable as the weather, but the was things are now, it looks rough. I think what's bothering me the most is that I know in 2 weeks I will be turning 27 and I wanted to be doing something that is more of a "career" by now. Also, I think being back in the US for 2 months made me realize how things are a bit easier back there seeing as I know how to find a job, speak the language fluently and I can have anything I want if I put together a little effort. And finally, but certainly not least, is the one thing I belive I mentioned before and no money can buy here in Italia, and if you couldn't figure it out by now, its my family.
So where do I go from here. Don't get me wrong, I have not made any decisions by any means, because I know how hard I worked to get here and how hard it would be for me to relocate again, and once I make that decision, it's final, no turning back. Hopefully what I am feeling will ware off seeing as maybe I'm just a bit home-sick. However, somebody remind me why I love it here because I know I did, but forgot what it was.
On a bit of a lighter note, I have one job possibility (granted I was told up front that it would only be for the tourist season). I don't know the specifics, like as to what hours I'd be working or what it would pay, but its a start. And of course I will keep looking for a bit before I make any decisions about as to where I will work. But I was thinking, seeing as this, like most free nations, is a capitalist society and thus, my indecisive feelings may be because I am an outsider of this system right now. Thus, work gives a bit of a routine and order to my life and gives me a sense of being needed.
Since returning, I have seen alot of my friends that I left here. How I missed them but I really wish there was more to do during the winter months. I don't like staying home and being alone, but it seems that anything else that includes hanging with friends includes drinking, and I don't have the money nor do I not like feeling like crap after a couple - few drinks. Man this is really turning into a depressing blog.
Well, on that note, I'm going to end the blog seeing as there's still a bit of sunshine out and I want to enjoy it.
Ciao tutti!!
So where do I go from here. Don't get me wrong, I have not made any decisions by any means, because I know how hard I worked to get here and how hard it would be for me to relocate again, and once I make that decision, it's final, no turning back. Hopefully what I am feeling will ware off seeing as maybe I'm just a bit home-sick. However, somebody remind me why I love it here because I know I did, but forgot what it was.
On a bit of a lighter note, I have one job possibility (granted I was told up front that it would only be for the tourist season). I don't know the specifics, like as to what hours I'd be working or what it would pay, but its a start. And of course I will keep looking for a bit before I make any decisions about as to where I will work. But I was thinking, seeing as this, like most free nations, is a capitalist society and thus, my indecisive feelings may be because I am an outsider of this system right now. Thus, work gives a bit of a routine and order to my life and gives me a sense of being needed.
Since returning, I have seen alot of my friends that I left here. How I missed them but I really wish there was more to do during the winter months. I don't like staying home and being alone, but it seems that anything else that includes hanging with friends includes drinking, and I don't have the money nor do I not like feeling like crap after a couple - few drinks. Man this is really turning into a depressing blog.
Well, on that note, I'm going to end the blog seeing as there's still a bit of sunshine out and I want to enjoy it.
Ciao tutti!!
posted by V_Concessi at 19:12
1 Comments:
It will all work out son...you love it there. I will be there to see you at least once this year!!! love you and keep your chin up.
Post a Comment
<< Home